Maybe All Is Not Well...

On Tuesday morning, October 13, we sent out a desperate request for prayer to our closest friends and family....

Things are not looking very good for this pregnancy. I had just a tiny bit of bleeding Sunday night and it worried me, so I called yesterday morning, hoping they could get me in for an ultrasound just to reassure me everything was ok. I couldnt' get in to the doctors office, but they sent me to the diagnostics building. That meant I wouldn't get any results until late in the day, but it was better than nothing, and I figured if there was a heartbeat, they'd let me hear it.

The news is that the U/s shows me being only 6 weeks along and no heartbeat yet. I should be 8-9 weeks. So either I was WAY off with my figuring (which I doubt... I usually know pretty well what's going on) or or the baby stopped developing at 6 weeks. I haven't had any more bleeding. I had a blood test today for a progesterone level, but those results won't be back until tomorrow afternoon. I'm supposed to keep my appointment and have another u/s tomorrow (8:30) and see the doctor.

So at this point, I'm praying for good news, but trying to prepare for bad news. Nothing has been encouraging so far. I was queasy all day yesterday and then this morning not a bit. So even the morning sickness isn't there to be the usual "good sign".

My biggest concern is that we told the kids Sunday afternoon... that was dumb. If only we'd waited ONE more day. But that seems to be how it goes. **** knows there is some concern about the baby (she already was aware that sometimes babies die before they're born, maybe from Little House on the Prairie?), but we've talked a lot about God's plans for families and people and that whatever happens will be ok.

I'm not really up to talking on the phone right now. I'll keep you posted on what I find out tomorrow. I think once I have a definite answer, I'll feel better... it's the waiting and not knowing that's hard. I do know that this is much easier than it would be if it was my first baby or even second or third. And I know we can always try again if this really is a miscarriage.

Anyway, we wanted to let you know so you could be praying. Please don't put it on the prayer chain right now.