Relief

Yesterday afternoon was rough. "A Heavy Period" does not describe what it was like at all. More like 5 hours of labor. And WAY more bleeding than I've ever had with my periods. (I'm convinced now that I have lighter-than-average periods) By 6pm I was pretty sure things were beyond normal, and my husband was going to take me in to the Emergency Room. I'd called the nurse at my OBs office an hour and a half before, and she said to give it and hour and if things didn't start to let up, I should go in and get checked out to make sure there wasn't a problem. The OB on call was notified that she'd probably be hearing from the ER staff sometime. So I had a babysitter lined up to meet us halfway and take the kids for the evening. But right at the last minute I decided to just give it one more hour. I really didn't want to end up with a D&C if I didn't really need it. And I REALLY didn't want to go to the ER and sit around a germy waiting room and get stuck waiting forever, and the embarrassment factor was still there, so maybe I wasn't in as bad a shape as I thought!

That last hour did the trick. Everything let up and by 7pm I was already feeling better and knew I was probably going to survive. :) So we called the babysitter and let her know we didn't need her... she told us she'd have her cell phone by her pillow and if we needed her at any time in the night, she'd be there. The kids were disappointed, that they weren't going to get to go "be babysat", but they got over it.

I'm really so relieved that this didn't end up lasting longer than it did. The waiting and the potential for waiting longer was no fun. But neither would it have been any easier to be surprised by what happened yesterday...

I know emotions are weird and maybe sadness will keep sneaking up on me, but for now I think I'm just really ready to get back to normal. I'm sad when I think that I'd be almost through with my first trimester and how fun it would be to be expecting and planning through the holidays and then through the boring months after the new year before the weather gets really nice. And I know it may be hard if I'm not pregnant again by May (when this baby would have been born), but that's just not something I can worry about now. I have to admit, at least I have another chance to be extra healthy and exercise a little before I get pregnant again... and enjoy the extra energy when I'm NOT pregnant. I'd forgotten how tired being pregnant makes me!

Well, tonight is pizza and movie night, so I'd better get the pizzas going!